Dear Addie,

I hate this pain and I wish you were here. I can't remember what you felt like, the only thing I do remember is how cold you were and how I wanted to make you warm. How sad yet precious you looked, and praying over you asking for God to bring you back. This pain is unbearable....I feel bad when I don't think about you because I feel like I'm forgetting you. But it hurts so much when you are on my mind. There is a whole in my heart that nothing will every be able to fill. I want you here in my arms. I keep telling people I'm happy when I don't remember what being truly happy feels like. Even the other day when I got to feel it for a couple of hours I forgot it. I just want to be happy again. I want you.